Doubts

I don't know what's going on with me. I envy the pro-cosplayer, I wanna be like them but my situation sometimes make me think "am I able to cosplay again?" I barely made it to any cosplay event this year. I have no idea if I able to make it for CF too.This is hard, maybe I should quit cosplay? but it's my passion! to have and make something that is a pleasure such as this is what I dear the most. I love cosplay, I love be with my friends but am I fit to be around them? For God sake , I'm much older than any of them. I can be called onee-san already. I don't know. Maybe if I am able to go, I may not be cosplaying but instead I'll be cheering my friends. I love them so much, even we never even met before. We share the same passion. That's what makes us so close. I guess :) *sigh* pressure~~~~~ TAT

I will format my lappy after this. He 'yes my laptop is a male' He getting slower each day. =_=" Will be installing all applications again, Adobe, mic.office, and so on~

owh yes..current mode: I miss my best friend K.Byakuya. We have a fight last time and now we are back together, OWH!! not as a lover as you all read my lovey dovey drama in fb, we just friends who share problems together and supporting each other. for God sake, long distant relationship never work for us :p and furthermore I AM MARRIED...duhh...don't get us wrong, when we said 'I love you' means we do love! but as a friend. We are indeed a good friend who rely on each other :) He really reliable, who ever became his lover is so lucky. :) I wish him all the best!

Greenwood Clover

It has been four days my new fashion online shop launch.GREENWOOD CLOVER. Pre-order is on the way, ready stock from Guangzhou also is on the way. I'm thankful that at last my dream come true...and the name of my atarashi online shoten 'Greenwood' is from my favorite japanese teenage drama 'HERE IS GREENWOOD' and 'Clover' basically it's my favorite plant...I love clover more than any flower or trees or plant in the world because it's so cute and small and brings luck too!

Add me up and happy shopping to all!

http://www.facebook.com/greenwood.clover

Dear September

These the activities that I've been doing this September's blessing.

Going to Genting Highland and spent one night there. While having fun, I watch the DAZZLE show. It's mystical~~~ but I don't take picture while in the theater =_= my camera and mobile pone are out of battery..I'll be damn....





































last night we celebrate my dear baby girl birthday. Theme: cosplay.
We have such a great time! so many people! my house is full last night. It's a bless that everyone love my baby girl I'm grateful for everything I have and I hope it's getting better in the future. Here's a picture of last night event.

Tanjobi

It's my birthday! Wake up earlier this morning with a new hair Matsumoto hair! ARGH!!! ...I'm so Matsumoto Rangiku mode today. So..what else yea? owh I've got hell lot of bonus for raya! yeehaaa! I'm going to shop like a shopaholic! YATTA!!!!

Onna Soshite Byakuya (Eves and White Nights)

My heart. It has been years I falling in love with you, over and over again. You always make my heart beating so fast. Give me the exciting butterfly effect through my whole body. Just thinking about it gives me chills. Owh my... You not even exist, why do I fall in love with you so deeply? Every time I close my eyes I always call you into my dreams, for all the things I do in a day I always have you in my heart and your voice is in my head. Your eyes, your perfect curved lips, your scent…you drive me crazy. I wish I could see you, I wish I could talk to you, I wish I could hold you but I can’t do that because the world know, you not exist. I’m in love with shadow and I enjoy it because you never let me down. You never yell at me, you never say no to my request, you never fail to make me happy. Even you not here, but I know in my humble heart you are the king and I will always love you until I die. I love you.

Fasting

Fasting month starts tomorrow.
I have to get up early ad prepare meals for sahur. ^^
Yeay! I love fasting month. It brings me back on earth.

Anime Figurine

Owh yeah...I have a new hobby...
I'ce made up my mind.
I'm collecting anime figures! yeay...
I love Miku figurine >_< I WANT IT!!!

Figures on the way

Haruhi Suzumiya set of 8
Maihime set of 4


My wish list:

Confusing

Tonight my heart feel confuse for nothing! weird~~ Doki doki jya~~ nande???? 0_o
I don't understand why do I have this kind of feeling. I don't understand, it's hurt T^T and exciting at the same time. Hmm...

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in a mean while, I keep on thinking shold I or should I not cosplaying Dark Rukia for CF.

here is the list of my choices that still in consideration:



1)Dark Rukia - bleach














2)CC - Code Geass

















3)Misaki Ayuzawa - Kaichou wa maid sama!













-I already have cc wig but sadly I cut the bangs and it went horrible.
-I want to cosplay dark rukia but the scythe have a problem.
-I already have a maid costume. why do I need more?

Argh~~~

So, I just go with Rukia shinigami version only? Is that ok??????

ARGH!!! I want something different!

SpongeBob Mood Badge

SpongeBob Mood Badge: "Put the SpongeBob Mood badge on your page."

Color your world WILD

Today I color my hair. I look like an anime girl ^^
I love the color actually. Light and young :)
likey...

Hubby not home his away on business trip. I'm alone with Shana-chan.
I wanna give my husband a surprise with my new hair! :) He'll love it for sure!
Owh man....I miss him already..can't wait till Wednesday.
Ai tai anata ^^

Wonders of the world.

Everyday is a new day.That's what I recovered so far. Even though we've been through the same schedule everyday but we learn new things.
In terms of everything -- even the way we speak sometimes change without even noticing the changes that we make drastically until we on the bed wondering what's new that we learned that day and what kind of changes that we make. That's what I always think before going to bed. It really interesting when I think that the reality of the world is that we always learning.
Learning unconsciously, gain new idea of what we learn that day but we our-self didn't notice it because it's too random.
Like now, I'm typing what I think right now in my head, even I didn't realize that it actually makes sense. It's weird but in a good way. May I doing this often as possible to make my blog interesting?
hmm I like the idea. See, an idea from a brilliant mind power.

What IF?

I was thinking while watching Inuyasha on Animax. Hehe I know it sounds crazy and it maybe impossible, but WHAT IF perchance me cosplaying as Kagome Higurashi and I'm making my sister as Inuyasha, my brother as Miroku and my other sister as Sango lastly my daughter as Shippo. God! it would make a perfect cosplay ^^
I always love Inuyasha. I can watch it over and over again, never gets tired of it. Damn it gotta be fun if I'm making this idea a reality... hahaha....it's impossible but maybe it's possible Who knows? it might happen some day :p

::SHARK::

I'm watching Deep Blue Sea...main character is like my title. SHARK. I'm blur but I get creative at this hour.

Today went well, like always but it getting so much better after I manage to cut Rukia scythe ^^ yokatta. It's a good shape LOL! honto ni yokatta~~~tomorrow I'm gonna work on Dark Rukia outfit...one at the time baby~~

I'm thinking about making a novel in Bahasa Malaysia. It's gotta be interesting coz the last time I'm making one was when I'm 14 years old or so...after that I only making English type novels and most of it gets too exciting and its stuck. I mean my brain sort of deny every aspects of creativity. its sucks. period!
Maybe making Bahasa kind of novel will make everything different. I should try. I think. I love English and Japanese language but I'm good in Malay literature as well. I mean even though I'm in to JK, (yes I change my style so much, I became a Korean girl)but I never forgets my root. I love my race, Malay history and art. It's in my blood, my vein, my existence. So why not? hmmm.....like it~

Miss him

This happened exactly one year ago on the same date June 25th, 2009. He made such impact on all of us with his music especially with his dance.Michael Jackson death

This is the first death anniversary for Michel Jackson. He died at 50 due to drug overdose at his rented Mansion, which is in Los Angeles. His personal doctor Dr. Conrad Murray has with Michael Jackson death time. Presently, he his facing the Michael Jackson death charges.

The fans from the all over the world are celebrating his death anniversary with lot of sadness in their hearts. Lot of fans offered their condolences messages to Micheal Jackson kids Prince Michael, 13, Paris, 12, and eight-year-old Prince Michael II.

Some of his fans are organizing the music shows of Michael Jackson to remember him once again.

WE MISS YOU MJ...

tryout to be

Byakuya-sama said he always update his blog with his phone.
Well I'm doing it now! Updating my blog with my blackberry :) IT IS FUN!
Now I will be updating with just muy phone! I know.. I'm very outdated :(
But who cares!? Haha! It's fun!

::Dark Rukia::

I've made up my mind. This year CF, I'm going as Dark Rukia. I know it kinda hard because I myself will make the costume and it's scythe. Gambatte Neesa! You can do it!
I find a way on how to make the scythe! ^^ yokatta~~~ I love my brain...LOL XD

Anyhow, I'm going to be Dark Rukia!! Instead I am watching fade to Black to memories her outfit right now :)

only one problem now....WHERE THE HELL CAN I FIND HER GREY HAIR!!?? ...gah ~_~

urgh flu of the year!

My my I suffered from flu right now. I'm hurt~~ mentally and physically. I can't breathe~~~~~ I miss my best friend. SO BAD!
I wish I know what to say, but I'm totally blank.
So...jya nee!

Miss our talk

I miss my good friend. I was viewing the net and saw the picture several times and my heart goes doki doki jya >.<
I haven't talk to him for quite some time. usually we shared our stories everyday, he will tell me everything but lately his busy and we haven't shared anything. it was like empty leh. He didn't even updated his blog. Where is he? I miss him. Kinda need him too. Damn I miss him too much ka? K-san......online please~~~ ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡

Go!

It's been ages my friends! I miss updating this blog. Well nothing happen much really.
I just feeling dumb and abandon by my family. I feel useless and trashy but hey what am I gotta lose right?~~~ I'm still happy and I have my own important person who still love me. Owh well...I've made up my stupid mind to let it out in here. So for those who read my blog, from now on. It's gonna get dirtay and interesting. Watch out people! I'm done being nice!

Silents

Few days of silent kills me!
I hate it, this feeling will fade away w/o it.
Hah! I'm going crazy now.

Anyway, just today I find out that Tokio Hotel is coming here to M'sia!!
YATTA!!!! because of their show here doesn't include selling ticket, I guess I have to win one. So I joined the MTVasia Tokio Hotel Contest to win the ticket. Haha..hope for the best!

::TOKIO HOTEL::

LOVE THEM!

魂の叫び

私はずっと彼に会いたい。
私たちは、それぞれ、ほぼ毎日、他の話をしよう。
しかし、私はまだ彼のミス。
何かについて、彼に私は常に彼のことを思い出す。
どうすればいいですか？
しかし、彼はあまりにもミスの知っている彼はそれを日常と述べた。

彼は私の魂の伴侶は、彼が私の心は、彼が私の愛である
健吾さん。どうやって回避できますか？

Kuwai yo!

I can't imagine people swaying around their weapon without fear in front of quite many eye witness.
That happen to us earlier today. A real fight with quite a few people injured. A guy almost faint and having a bad nausea after being slashed by a freaking huge cleaver. Pity that guy :( He didn't do anything wrong at all. really those guys have guts to cut people w/o reasonable explanation. Just crazy. it happen in front of my eyes and the one who badly injured, we know him. Quite a good guy actually. I hope the cops get them sooner with the crime they just commit. Seriously fucking unreasonable.

I hate people who don't use their fucking mind!!!!!!!!
Totally!
It's a scary sight...real scary...

IMVU

Joining IMVU chat!
My name kaoruhisa!
2 years ago I have create my own account in IMVU but then I just kinda forget about it. And just now I find the site again, download the app. and now POFF!! chatroom!!!
Here is my ava.


i try hard to make it look more like me...but end up like...this~~

悲しい気持ちになった

Right now as we speak, I was listening to Namikawa Daisuke voice message through my headphone, who's that? He is the owner of Ulquiorra Schiffer voice dakara nee ('-^*)/ My my I think this guy really have talent in singing （‐＾▽＾‐） Though he was speaking in Japanese but it surprise me, I understand everything he said :)

Suddenly I have the 'everything paid of' feeling. Arigatou Ken-san, you are my GREATEST TEACHER EVER!о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆

Yare yare...it has been days now. I didn't talk with Ken-san, kinda miss him so much though.ヽ( )｀ε´( )ノ
He have been so busy lately and so does I. [sigh] Do I really need this （￣▽￣）=３

Anyway, I still working on my novel. Haha! It working so well now, I have TONS of idea and story line....DAISUKI DESU~~~~ (｀∀´)

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THIS MESSAGE IS FOR BYAKUYA-SAMA.

Ano...Byakuya-sama if you read this. Moushiwakearimasen nee Byakuchin-cama...
。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
I really want to online but I'm so busy lately. So sorry for not be there for you.
I know you miss me as much as I miss you.
Kanashii kimochi ni natta :(
But i try my best to online.
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I love Matsumoto Rangiku song Ran Hana (RANKA)~~~
Owh By the way,this year Burimyu!! I already decide, that my favorite part is when Kuchiki Byakuya dancing with Yoruichi!!! KAWAII!!!!

Rukia in the making

Ano nee....I got my Sode no Shirayuki last Sunday.
うれしい!
I order Rukia's wiggu already. Now Wait for the shipping from Jenice!
I can't wait to cosplay Rukia...

Well then

It's 3.41am Feb 22, 2010.

I admit it I having trouble sleeping these few day.
I keep on hearing ___ voice. ____has the most beautiful voice ever.

Ken-san is now buzy with his *work* didn't online tonight. I'm lonely T^T

Damn I'M BORED! WHY IS SEIREITEI GET SO LONELY AT NIGHT?!


Zanpakutou in Aizen-san keep. *damn he so strong. Now all taichou didn't have their zanpakutou with them. Seireitei is so venerable now*


they having a great time together. Sashiburi nee ^^

悪い予感？

Yeah...wake up this morning.
Feeling so freakin' pissed off.
So pissed I sleep in my momma room last night.
Why do I even mad when I read those msg?
God! I'm so thankful though because I can control my feeling over this ridiculous, stupid, ungrateful things that they did to me.
I'm getting used to been played, so used to it I can't even cry.
Instead, I'm smiling, inhale and exhale slowly and pretend they just made another stupid mistake that one day WILL ruined their own future.
[When will they learn? stupid~]
Let they go on with their act, lies and sin. let them be.
One day, they will regret with their own act of idiocy.
One day dakara. Until that day come, I'll just wait. Smiling.
Because I know one day, they will cry and I will say

"I'm glad I have no feeling to begin with"

But Ken-san, u make me feel so lucky at the end of the day.
Arigatou nee!! I'm so lucky to have you here :)

I almost forgot that I have you

Yes...just like the title written. [I FORGOT TO UPDATE MY BLOG!]
I'm busy updating the other kakkoi burogu of mine. Geez...
Okay, just wanna remind my self that today [5 Jan 2010,Tuesday]
I change my hair style, I thought I wanna do rebonding but I'm making a relaxing.
Quite nice though, at least my hair didn't look like sticking on my face.

rebonding will make a thin hair like me, a surf board on head. LOL

I'm happy with the outcome о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆
arigato~~~