Should I?

What 'Should I?' I just wanna make it sound scawee......

God, I know I should post this days ago but why not now right? I still can't believe his gone. MJ. I never miss him this much. My childhood music was filled with his song's and now his gone. I've been thinking about him days now. Seeing the E!News for more update about his autopsy. Yesterday I read in Yahoo News, his family ask for second autopsy and now as 'today' third autopsy?? O God please make it fast. Kesian jenazah dia.

(articles from Yahoo)-The relatives of Michael Jackson, who refused to believe the results of the first and second autopsys have requested that a third one be performed. This one will be done at a different hospital by a different team of Medical Examiners. The family hopes that, this time, the results will be different and will give them the peace of mind that they feel they need in this tragedy.-

I can't get it out of my mind. Really? His not coming back even if they ask for thousands autopsy. Please God help him...


RIP MJ. The world is going to miss u.

Owh yeah...yesterday, Ain turned 9-month-old. She got her new baloon duck from her daddy. I can't believe in the next 3 month she's going to be 1-year-old. She starts merangkak last week and she starts to stand without holding anything. Ofcourse sekejap je la.then she fell down slowly...and she still keeping up. Go go baby mommy go!!!!



Ain with her baloon duck ^^


She's dancing when she heard the anime song called 'Onna no Ko Otoko no Ko' and she dance to THAT song only...

New Hard Life

Dear followers,
Today is the third day I moved in to my new home.Officially. My life is change, it's becoming even harder than before. I live with my mom the last 8 month, so my schedule is managable, my mom fix the lunch while I handling my baby. It's easy, but now I had to do everything my self. I mean I had to do everything alone. It's not like my husband didn't give me a hand, it's just that he got a lot of things to be done. Work, new office is on the way bla bla bla. So, I understand his complicated situation. I hate whining but this is way to heavy to handle. I woke up and my baby already awake. I bath her and then fed her, after that she's asleep and while she taking her nap I had to rush my own bath for at least 10 minutes including what-i-want-to-wear-today. Then fix her poridge, then she wakes up and in the mean time I had to do the breakfast and lunch in the same time. But until today I failed to cook our lunch, so I made a heavy breakfast that will last till noon. While I do all the things, I had my baby in one hand and sometimes I put her in her yellow baby walker. But she is so spoil, she cries whenever she gets boring in it. I had to carry her wherever I go. So now I had this backache that I had to endure.
It's frightening to faced tomorrow, but what am I supposed to do. It's my job as a mother and a wife. GOD why can't I just believe in maids...yeah I had this trouble in trusting people. I dont feel comfortable if there is stranger in my house. It's hard to be me ... but I'm thankful coz God had given me a hardworking husband and an adorable child. Thank you God. But at least take this backache for awhile, it's hurt so much :( :)

Moving in!!

6/6/2009 We move in to our new house :) and spent one night there. It's a lot to be done, the kitchen cabinet is not done yet, wallpaper will be up on Tuesday, today new bed just come in. Last night I spent the nite at mama's house because it's hard live without kitchen...(macamana nak masak? Paip air tak install lagi oOO.) We plan to make the house warming on the end of jun so there is still time though. That's just a plan, not yet confirm. so wait for the news ok!

I'm happy with all things that happen now. Currently, I'm sitting here in the family hall listening to Britney's new album that I bought about a month ago. I think. God I love her so much. Thinking about all the things that happen to her, God.She so strong but still so fragile. U know what? She is my idol. That's why I wanna be a young momma. Married in such a young age.Hahaha..there goes my BIG secret. I'm glad I let it out my chest..haaaahhhhh....

What else? Okay here is my family hall picture...will update soon.