New Change

I change my layout today. Killing this free time that had been given to me by surfing the internet. While my husband doing his work in his office and my daughter asleep. I ask my self right now as we speak, I do love graphic art. I'm quite expert in aditing pictures and making websites but why in the hell did I do this account thing? Okay I admit it, I have to help my husband. But leaving my interest behind is killing me. Today I try to retouch my skills, I totally blank like an A4 paper that had nothing on it. I'm totally blur I don't know where to start. I miss my zaman bujang where I have a huge time to retouch all pictures with beautiful graphics and wild colours. It's gone now, my creativity is gone...where could it be?

I realize, I don't have time for all that now. I had to focus on my family. My loving husband who is now became really loving to me and our child. I love him, I would die for him and also my lovely daughter who brighten up my day whenever I open my eyes. I love them both so much, I thank God for given me such a lovely people around me. For that, I ready to devote my life for them and leave my talent behind.


This is the picture I edit, Kuchiki Byakuya and me (owh yeah I crazy about him back then)


This is one of my all time fav. Title is Proxy

Owh yeah it's teeth!

Ain has growing teeth! It is so cute I've notice it 6 july 2009 <--last week. I know I should post this last week after I find out, but I'm too lazy to turn on my notebook. Here is the picture that I took just a few minutes ago. Yesterday I've notice a new teeth is coming out, I couldn't take a picture of it coz it's too small.

My last few day

Last saturday Ija promise to come home and bring us (Da sisters) shopping but it has been canceled. I'm sOO freakin pissed off, but then I begging yes BEGGING my husnband to take us to MidValley. After long begging and persuading he said okay. It's the best thing to remember u know. Coz my husband don't really like shopping. HAH! sayang bini punya pasal la ni. I have a good time, I purcased a hand bag from MNG and more!

The thing that I definately dissapointed is, why the hell is ALL the clothing and dresses doesn't get my attention? I usually crazy about all this things, its all not so attractive nowadays. What happen to the world? It's like having a curse! I don't like it. Really don't like it! I was there at Midvalley from 7pm till 10.30pm...but I only buy a few things? That not me!

Actually the main thing I was eager to go there is because I've run out of Dandelion. I need to buy it or I'm dead. BUT instead of 'Dandelion', I've buy 'Thrrrob' why is that?!!! Am I crazy? Even thrrrob give this blushing faces, it doesn't stay for so long like Dandelion...damn I hate my 'give-it-a-try' self.

Should I?

What 'Should I?' I just wanna make it sound scawee......

God, I know I should post this days ago but why not now right? I still can't believe his gone. MJ. I never miss him this much. My childhood music was filled with his song's and now his gone. I've been thinking about him days now. Seeing the E!News for more update about his autopsy. Yesterday I read in Yahoo News, his family ask for second autopsy and now as 'today' third autopsy?? O God please make it fast. Kesian jenazah dia.

(articles from Yahoo)-The relatives of Michael Jackson, who refused to believe the results of the first and second autopsys have requested that a third one be performed. This one will be done at a different hospital by a different team of Medical Examiners. The family hopes that, this time, the results will be different and will give them the peace of mind that they feel they need in this tragedy.-

I can't get it out of my mind. Really? His not coming back even if they ask for thousands autopsy. Please God help him...


RIP MJ. The world is going to miss u.

Owh yeah...yesterday, Ain turned 9-month-old. She got her new baloon duck from her daddy. I can't believe in the next 3 month she's going to be 1-year-old. She starts merangkak last week and she starts to stand without holding anything. Ofcourse sekejap je la.then she fell down slowly...and she still keeping up. Go go baby mommy go!!!!



Ain with her baloon duck ^^


She's dancing when she heard the anime song called 'Onna no Ko Otoko no Ko' and she dance to THAT song only...

New Hard Life

Dear followers,
Today is the third day I moved in to my new home.Officially. My life is change, it's becoming even harder than before. I live with my mom the last 8 month, so my schedule is managable, my mom fix the lunch while I handling my baby. It's easy, but now I had to do everything my self. I mean I had to do everything alone. It's not like my husband didn't give me a hand, it's just that he got a lot of things to be done. Work, new office is on the way bla bla bla. So, I understand his complicated situation. I hate whining but this is way to heavy to handle. I woke up and my baby already awake. I bath her and then fed her, after that she's asleep and while she taking her nap I had to rush my own bath for at least 10 minutes including what-i-want-to-wear-today. Then fix her poridge, then she wakes up and in the mean time I had to do the breakfast and lunch in the same time. But until today I failed to cook our lunch, so I made a heavy breakfast that will last till noon. While I do all the things, I had my baby in one hand and sometimes I put her in her yellow baby walker. But she is so spoil, she cries whenever she gets boring in it. I had to carry her wherever I go. So now I had this backache that I had to endure.
It's frightening to faced tomorrow, but what am I supposed to do. It's my job as a mother and a wife. GOD why can't I just believe in maids...yeah I had this trouble in trusting people. I dont feel comfortable if there is stranger in my house. It's hard to be me ... but I'm thankful coz God had given me a hardworking husband and an adorable child. Thank you God. But at least take this backache for awhile, it's hurt so much :( :)

Moving in!!

6/6/2009 We move in to our new house :) and spent one night there. It's a lot to be done, the kitchen cabinet is not done yet, wallpaper will be up on Tuesday, today new bed just come in. Last night I spent the nite at mama's house because it's hard live without kitchen...(macamana nak masak? Paip air tak install lagi oOO.) We plan to make the house warming on the end of jun so there is still time though. That's just a plan, not yet confirm. so wait for the news ok!

I'm happy with all things that happen now. Currently, I'm sitting here in the family hall listening to Britney's new album that I bought about a month ago. I think. God I love her so much. Thinking about all the things that happen to her, God.She so strong but still so fragile. U know what? She is my idol. That's why I wanna be a young momma. Married in such a young age.Hahaha..there goes my BIG secret. I'm glad I let it out my chest..haaaahhhhh....

What else? Okay here is my family hall picture...will update soon.

Update My Life now

Hallo kawan-kawan!! duh...
Yesterday is Azrul's birthday. We celebrate it with a small private party and in a same time, Ain turned 8-month-old.Yeay!! Mommy suka!!! She SO adorable! She just having her first blended rice today! before this she just having a cereal. So cute...she love it!! yeay!!!

My new house is 90% done. Still need to install the kitchen cabinet and cabinet for family hall...next month maybe, we moving in.Yeay!

U see my life is turning better and better after marriage. Alhamdulillah...

The thing that bothering me right now is 'Our CyberCafe'. It's close right now and maybe forever. MPKJ still freeze the CC's license. Damn!! Azrul told me that we might transfer our CC to Johore. Nak buat bisnes pun susah la. I hate hating the goverment. Haih...wat a bad luck.
But that will not hold us down. Keep on believing! Some day luck is on our side...

Make believe...make believe...


My New House


Me and my daughter